Tammy's Bird Brain » moody http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com I give myself very good advice but I very seldom follow it. -Alice in Wonderland Thu, 02 Sep 2010 15:21:08 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.0.1 mantra for the day http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/2009/11/mantra-for-the-day/?source=rss http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/2009/11/mantra-for-the-day/#comments Tue, 24 Nov 2009 22:20:24 +0000 Tammy http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/?p=697 I can’t expect perfection from others and expect them to give me leeway to be imperfect. (duh)


This has been my mantra today.  

I got so irritated with so many people today because with my limited view they seemed like idiots.

Really they are not idiots and the world does not revolve around me.


Amazingly enough.






Where to you find the switch in your brain that turns off the irritation you feel from others?  I would really like to know.  That would be quite a relief.




post edit:
one actually is an idiot.

]]> http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/2009/11/mantra-for-the-day/feed/ 1 Expectations http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/2009/11/expectations/?source=rss http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/2009/11/expectations/#comments Tue, 03 Nov 2009 05:34:31 +0000 Tammy http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/?p=639 The expectations I have for myself and others have become a mountain of disappointment.  I am so tired, tired, tired.

Tired of the disappointment.

Tired of the waiting.

Tired of the depressed silence that comes from the failed expectation.

If I could eliminate expectation from my life that would be great.  I might live and love more freely. I might live in my moments.

The worst part about expectation is that you usually ruin people with your own expectations of them and they don’t even know about it.  Then you get angry with them when they didn’t even have a fighting chance to save themselves in your eyes.  All because they didn’t know your expectations.  And a lot of the time your expectations are ridiculous.

Stupid expectations.  You are little shits.

]]> http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/2009/11/expectations/feed/ 4 rose colored glasses…I do have them…somewhere http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/2009/08/346/?source=rss http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/2009/08/346/#comments Wed, 26 Aug 2009 23:26:57 +0000 Tammy http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/?p=346 I think I am going to barf in my boots.  Seriously.  Some people have no grip on reality.  Not every day is perfect and happy and loverly.  I can put rose colored glasses on just like everyone else but there are good days and bad days and that’s OK.  If you don’t have bad days then you can’t appreciate the good.  And if you read my blog regularly you must know that I really know how to appreciate the good.  No really I just feel like when I blog I am more complaining then not.  Sorry about that.

So I will put on my rosy glasses for you.


I actually went running the other day and the weather was gorgeous.

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It had just rained and so there were all these big puffy clouds I just wanted to reach up and grab them.

Utah’s mountains are so wonderful.  I love running and seeing them and I love when the air is cool and wet and the clouds provide me shade.  I also had a tail wind so I felt like wonder woman being pushed by the wind and pulled by the jogging stroller.  I love seeing Eva’s cute little feet while I run.  (imagine cute picture here)  Yes, I got the clouds and not my cute daughter’s feet.

I pulled out and dusted off my Achtung Baby album by U2.  I know it is not hip right now to like something so mainstream but seriously it is one of my very favorite albums.  Who is not “tryin’ to throw your arms around the world” or wondering “who’s gonna ride your wild horses” or who doesn’t want “to help the lepers in your head”?  Love it, love it.  Bono is a little kooky but really we all love the red stuff and we get to help Africa while being trendy.  But hey, who likes trendy stuff?  (I’m pointing a finger at you Mac people with your red Ipod shuffles.)

So let’s all put on our running clothes and our rose colored glasses and our red Ipod shuffles and click on Mysterious Ways and go for a good run and check out our amazingly rosey world that has no problems.  
Halla!

]]> http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/2009/08/346/feed/ 6 What A Difference an Hour Makes http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/2008/05/what-a-difference-an-hour-makes/?source=rss http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/2008/05/what-a-difference-an-hour-makes/#comments Wed, 14 May 2008 14:47:00 +0000 Tammy http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/2008/05/what-a-difference-an-hour-makes/ Last night I went home from work feeling a bit down. I was completely unsatisfied with what I was doing with my life. All my flaws surfaced and I was trying to work through how to make myself a way better person. For example: I need to do volunteer work, I need to call my friends and family, I need to go to school, I need to exercise, I need to read more, I need to get out of debt, etc, etc, etc. I got completely overwhelmed so instead of making goals for myself I plopped down on the couch and knitted while watching Sweet Home Alabama. I then berated myself for knitting myself a sweater when I should be knitting it for some homeless child with no teeth. Then I went to bed. Clint of course was in a good mood and at a loss why I would be so down but didn’t push the issue probably knowing before I did that tomorrow would be completely opposite.

So today I feel absolutely fabulous. I am on this high. My life is great, I love everyone around me and want to call everyone and tell them so! Tra la la la la la la la la!

What I need to remember when this happens is to ask myself “What week is it?”. According to The Female Brain book the week before your period is the worst on your mind. Your reality and mood changes dramatically by the hour and you should never make any really important decisions. If I remember this I will understand the break down over making myself some brown rice for dinner and discovering I have actually made 5 cups of cracked wheat.

So all is well, I am not a horrible person though there are some changes I am sure I could make. My life is very green today and my view is great!

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So, I had some anxiety and took some of my trusty L-Theanine. It really helped me out so I thought I would share this amazing herb with you.
L-Theanine is a natural anxiety reducer and a mood enhancer and it really works. It is great for people of all ages except for babies. My sister uses it for her 3 year old and loves it. It just helps to calm you down but doesn’t cause drowsiness. It helps you to relax but gives you mental awareness. I have included a website you can visit that has some great information or just google it but I have found they all pretty much say the same thing. They even use it for people with ADD and the great thing about it is that you can’t really overdose on it.

http://web-us.com/l-theanine_anxiety_reducer.htm

I also got to the root of my anxiety thanks to my wonderful friends Tami & Mary. I love you. Thanks for your kind words and friendship.

One horrible thing about me is that I am really bad at nourishing the good relationships in my life and I am determined to change this about me. I can’t expect people to keep on loving me if I don’t show love to them.

So all you people out there expect some serious lovin’ even if you want it or not. (Seriously, tell me if you don’t want it.)

To quote one of the greatest bands The Beatles:
“And in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you made”.
-Abbey Road, The End

]]> http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/2008/05/l-theanine-to-the-rescue/feed/ 4 It’s One of Those Days!!!!! http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/2008/04/its-one-of-those-days/?source=rss http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/2008/04/its-one-of-those-days/#comments Thu, 17 Apr 2008 15:26:00 +0000 Tammy http://www.tammysbirdbrain.com/2008/04/its-one-of-those-days/ It is one of those days where I get irritated by very, very small things. It is a glitch in my personality I would like to fix but I haven’t figured out how to do it. For example: I am sitting at my desk and I can hear a person coughing and it is driving me crazy because it is not a real cough it is more like a wheeze. It is a constant thing but today it is making me want to jam pens into my ears so that I can’t hear it.
Another thing: I hate sounds or small talk people make to fill up silence. Who said silence was a bad thing? Who said I needed you to interrupt me with an idiotic question or comment because you can’t stand the silence? If you can’t stand silence you should figure out why.
Here is an example of the irritating silence filler:
Moe: (Pacing in front of my desk waiting for someone else)
Me: (Working at my computer)
Moe: (After a couple minutes of pacing) “So do you like working here?”
Me: “Here at the company?”
Moe: “No, here at your desk’s location?”
Me: “Sure”
THE END
What I really wanted to say was “NO, I DON’T BECAUSE I GET INTERRUPTED ALL THE TIME WITH FILLERS AND DUMB QUESTIONS!!!!”
Here’s another example:
Preface: My desk is by some stairs and we just got a new printer/copier behind my desk. It is really nice and big and everyone is excited about it. If you stand anywhere with in 20 feet my desk you can plainly see the new printer.
Me: (Sitting at my desk working)
Jose: (Walks up and stands right next to my desk) “So I was told that there is a new printer over here, where is it?”
Me: “Right there.” With a look of utter bewilderment I point over my shoulder where the huge printer is sitting in plain sight.
THE END

SERIOUSLY, IT IS GOING TO BE ONE OF THOSE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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