my potential potential
Tuesday, August 25th, 2009I am not living to my potential. Life has me trapped.
Job
Debt
TV
House
I have no time. There is not enough. I have tried to live on 5 hours of sleep and it doesn’t work. I keep thinking “I am raising a child and that is very important. I will live my potential through her” and then I think “Crap. Are my parents trying to live their potential through me?”.
Seriously if they are or were they have probably given up hope long, long ago. It is good that they had four kids. They have 3 more chances to prove themselves.
Maybe it all comes down to managing but seriously manage what?
Get up, get ready for work, feed Eva, get Eva ready.
Take Eva where she needs to go, go to work.
Work.
Get off work, get Eva, go home, go running.
Make dinner, feed Eva, clean up, put Eva to bed, shower.
It is now 11 p.m.
Do I stay up and do something productive? Do I go to bed?
I give credit where credit is due. Clint does help with a lot things but it’s not like it frees up tons of time to start some amazingly fulfilling project.
I am lowering my potential….maybe…..I do have the weekends to catch up.
Or this is my potential and I am giving myself way too much credit.
School is not the answer….don’t mention it.
The end end end.
btw: It was Teen Wolf. It was such a good movie they made a second one.
So awesome that they had to use Bateman in the second one, instead of MJF. I totally empathize with your frustrations, when it comes to productivity. Definitely not enough time in the day.
Just remember that this is just one phase in your life. Maybe this is not the period of your life where you make all of your dreams come true. Maybe for awhile just doing what you are doing will have to be good enough. You are young. Your family is young. Life changes and evolves constantly. One year from now you could be in a completely different place in your life. Keep hopeful.