Premonition and Weeds

Monday, June 1st, 2009

I have a nervous, horrible feeling. It came upon me on my way into work today and I can’t shake it. It is just a constant set of butterflies but the kind where you just suddenly took a fast fall like on a amusement park ride. It is awful and I have no idea where it came from. Of course my mind is racing about the horrible things that could go wrong today and this feeling is my warning. Maybe I should go and get Eva and go home and just avoid everything and everyone but then maybe my avoidance is the key to setting off the dreaded events. Has anyone seen the movie Premonition? It was so sad. What is the point of having premonitions if you can’t actually do anything with them? But I actually think that you can do something with premonitions and that they do help you so I don’t know why I mentioned anything anyways.

I had a perfect picture moment yesterday. Clint and I were weeding in our front yard, Eva sat in her bouncy chair next to us in a little summer outfit playing with her feet and babbling and our two cats were on the lawn wrestling. Dark clouds were rolling in and the smell of warm rain filled the air. The lighting was perfect so all we needed was a photographer to take black and white stills of us and the moment would have been captured. We were only out there for about a half hour but it was a perfect half hour and I will return to it on hard days. Funny how weeding is one of the worst jobs but add a best friend, a happy baby and two cats and it becomes a favorite.

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3 Responses to “Premonition and Weeds”

B and Jessica, on June 1st, 2009 at 11:03 am Said:

I live in constant fear. I seriously imagine the worst possible scenarios ALL THE TIME and then try to figure out how I would react and what I would do if they really happened. These scenarios involve horrible things like death of husbnad or baby, paralyzation of self and life in a wheel chair, and black widow spiders. I hate that I am so afraid of bad things happening.

Maybe your feeling of foreboding today is something minor…like you forgot rent was due.

Speaking of rent being due, that reminds me….
Natelli Johnston, on June 1st, 2009 at 11:35 am Said:

yesterday was beautiful, we saw the flower bed you weeded (is that a word? it wouldn’t be, “the flower beds you wed?”) good job.
Alicia, on June 1st, 2009 at 1:04 pm Said:

I absolutely hate that feeling. It’s awful and very hard to shake. Good luck, friend.

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