8 Weeks
Tuesday, March 10th, 2009
I am back to work after having a baby. This is my second week back. I have a great job that is really supportive and flexible with my new schedule. I am grateful. It has been hard to leave Eva but I don’t worry at all. Everyone that she is with I completely trust and know that she is being loved and taken care of. Phew.
I tend to be a guilt ridden person. I feel guilty for things that I have done in the past or things that I know I could be doing better or places where I fall short. It is hard sometimes for me to let go of things because of my guilty conscience. Motherhood has brought on a whole list of new things to feel guilty about.
Here are a few that have surprised me for it never crossed my mind I would feel guilty for these things:
- Feeding her from a bottle instead of my breast.
- Feeding her formula on occasion instead of my milk.
- Thrush
- Not being the person she sees when she first wakes up from every one of her 10 naps.
- Diaper rash
- Almost drowning her (OK, I didn’t really almost drown her but she sucked up some water and the look of terror on her face was heart breaking!)
- Intestional issues for her because I just had to have cheese on my burrito.
That is just a short version but you get the idea. It is an adventure for sure.
The really amazing thing is suddenly 6 hours of sleep is a really great night’s rest and getting up early is no problem!
She is precious!! I love this picture!
I have a lot of guilt especially since becoming a mother. When I worked, I felt guilty that i was away from Audrie. When I decided to stay home after I had Finn, I felt guilty that I wasn’t working. I think I’m just prone to feeling guilty.
Congrats on your sweet little Eva.
How about, hearing your kid cry while you are blogging… not that I’m doing it now.
That is the cutest picture of a baby ever..those eyes are killing me. And don’t feel guilty…all we can ever do is our best right? We were never required to be perfect, only to do our best and keep trying. At least that is what i tell myself
How did that post twice?
That picture is so cute – shows some Ware genes.
Ohhhh…I love her little face. So sweet. I know the guilty feeling. I’ve accepted it as a lifestyle.
I love this picture! I can’t wait to see her. What you really should feel guilty about is that you are denying your daughter a visit to Aunt Marie’s house where we can spoil her!
She is beautiful! I hope work isn’t to difficult being back.
What beautiful big eyes! Eva’s gorgeous. And don’t feel too guilty…you’re an awesome mom! (Besides guilt will forever come with the territory now…I’m starting to think “enduring to the end” is how well we’ll cope with our stress and guilt for the rest of our lives.
She is so sweet! I had so much fun with her today. I am so excited to see her grow and change each week. Fun!
And, guilt is just a part of motherhood. Get used to it. I feel guilty because Violet has asked me about 15 times today “mommy? Do you want to play with me?” And I’ve only said yes once.
Tammy, this is Shayla from Welby’s work. I just got on your blog and saw the update on Eva and had to tell you how adorable she is! For every bit as cute she is in this picture, she’s even more beautiful in person. You are a great mom – I could see that when you came to visit our office with your mom.
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