Tammy's Bird Brain

Over the weekend my mom hosted a girls night at her house and she invited all the girls on her side of the family. There were people there I hadn’t seen in a really long time and I was arriving late so my social anxiety kicked in and I was a bit nervous. As me and my sister pulled up to the house I expressed that I was a bit nervous and that if she pays attention she will see the times I completely make a fool of myself. (One of the side effects of my social anxiety is to be loud and obnoxious to divert the attention away myself. I realize that it doesn’t make sense.)

So everything was going really well. I slowly immersed myself into the group and said hello to everyone. We at junk food and talked and I was starting to get comfortable and somehow I yelled out the word Boner in one of my stories. Yes I did and no there was no alcohol at this party so I had no good excuse. I was telling a story about when I was young and my mom told me not to wear spandex because of what it would do to boys. I was young and was confused since she had actually made me my spandex shorts. Anyways, now that I think about it I don’t think she even used that word with me I think she just sort of described it somehow. Great, so can I blame this on pregnancy brain?? It probably wouldn’t have been so bad but then people continued on with the topic but just didn’t use the word they just used a pause and let us fill in the word for ourselves. I then realized one of my young cousins was in the room and I spent the rest of the time wondering if she was old enough to know what one was. I think she is 13 so she has to right? I guess I will find out soon enough.

Despite this it was a fun night. I love being around my family because they are as loud as me so I don’t leave with my own voice ringing in my ears. It was fun to see everyone. I have a great family with amazing women, they make me feel so special and like they are really excited to see me. I hope that we will do it again.

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